1. my phone is fucking screwed. like, i can't even call or text, people. i can only receive calls. tu pun naseb baik my phone is a slide phone. because you know what? the buttons are fucking fucked up and they won't work. fuck.

2. my bag was retarded just now. the parts fell off at random times. it's that stupid new camera bag some more. sigh. and please, you don't have to remind me that my beloved charles&keith bag is torn too. sigh.

3. i'm currently using my mum's OLD phone. (ye lah, she got the phone i wanted and now i'm using her reject phone. fun ke per.) sigh. and it's bloody hard to type messages with this phone because the keypad's rubber. as in, it's totally rubber. sigh. but i know i should be contented with the fact that at least i have a back up phone, kan. sighhhhh.

4. i just pissed a friend off because i'm pissed at somebody. to that somebody: wah, thanks eh. it was embarrassing to you, but it pissed me off majorly. and because i was pissed off at that somebody, i vent my anger on my darling julie. i'm so sorry honey baby. i really didn't mean to talk to you in that tone. sigh. i love you. and you probably had your revenge; leaving me to wonder the whole night. :(

5. my bff just enjoyed herself at that sentosa beach party while i was slogging my guts away at ikea. sigh. thanks eh babeeeeee. lol, but i know lah. i would have gone if i could, so, yeah. next time we must go together okayyy? pinkie pwomise. hahahaa.

6. somebody is being an egoistic childish bastard. and i don't like it.

7. i just realised that i haven't started on my ICAs at all. crap shit.

8. it's 3.02am in the morning, and my eyes are tearing again. this cycle has to stop one day. it just has to. i don't want to become kassim selamat. sigh. no, i wouldn't want to be blind. but do you want me to be blind? cause i wouldn't mind doing anything for you.

9. this sounds pathetic, but i feel like becoming a rockstar. and it's stupid, because i know i never will be.

10. and it sucks, because i know the only way to get over this, is to get heartbroken by somebody else. and right now, i don't think that's possible. maybe 2 years later?

11. my leg is bleeding like fuck.

12. i don't know why.

13. is his favourite number, right after 5.

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work again later in the evening.

this time, i really want somebody to send me home.

no, not like just now.

i never want that to happen ever again.

wait. scratch that.

i WANT to go home alone.

i. am. looking. forward. to. monday. :D

2 more weeks.

to the big ONE. SEVEN.

mary knows what i want for my birthday. i'd be the happiest girl forever more if i got what i wanted. (:

p/s: i want to get excited with you. i want to tell you everything that's happening in my life. i want to share everything with you. i want to know that you'll be the only one who loves me like crazy. i want you to tell me everything. why don't you exist?