i know, right? such a drastic change of images.

but seriously.

that's how sick i am right now.

the pictures were taken about, 3 seconds ago? haha.

i look pale? don't i?

hahahahahahaa.

okay sharifah shiok sendiri.

tsk.

you'll know.

i want to hug somebody right now.

but all that's available is bearbear.

i believe this is the first time i'm blogging about bearbear. yes people, i was spastic and named my teddybear bearbear. i got it last, last year, when i was a spoilt dumb bitch (i still am) who was loved by a very nice young man (who's now not very young and not very nice either). i wished i took a picture of bearbear when she was first bought, so i could show you the tremendous difference, but no. i didn't. so deal with this picture. introducing...

say hello to bearbear!

hahahahaa.

let me introduce her!

she's the biggest teddy bear i have to date. she's pink, although she looks a little bit too white in the pictures. maybe it's cause she's sick too. T_T and haha, yes, i call her a she because she has this make-belief invisible vagina somewhere between her legs. she was bought from mini toons, and she's VERY, VERY huggable.

i hug bearbear to sleep almost every other night. she's very easy to talk to, because she doesn't retort any statement i make and she just stares at me blankly. she's very versatile - can be used as a pillow or a bolster or just something to hug. she's with me 90% of the time i cry at home. she makes a very good substitute for somebody else. in fact, she's both the reasons why i'm able to survive without him, and also why i can't stop thinking about him.

but it's times like these.

(when i'm sick and it's a cold night.)

i just want you to hold me tight.

and hug me to sleep.

whoo!

3rd entry today.

i shall not blog tomorrow.

:D:D:D:D