ever had one of dem daysyou wish woulda stayed home
run into a group of niggas
getting they hate on
you walk by
they get wrong
you reply
then shit get blown
way outta proportion
way past discussion
just you against them
pick one then rush em
figure you'd get your hair?
that's next
they don't wanna stop
there now they bussin
now you gushin, ambulance
rushin you to the hospital
with a bad concussion
plus ya hit 4 times
plus it hit ya
spine paralyzed waist down
now ya wheel chair bound
nevermind that now
you lucky to be alive
just think it all started you
fussin with 3 guys
now ya pride in the way
but ya pride is the way
you could fuck around
get shot die anyday
niggas die
every day all over
bull shit dope money dice
game ordinary hood shit
could this be
cause of hip hop music
or did the ones
with the good sense
not use it
usually niggas
don't know what to do
when their back
against the wall
so they just start shootin
for red or for blue
or for blo i guess
from bankhead
or from your projects
no more stress
now i'm straight
now i get it now i take
time to think
before i make mistakes
just for my family's sake
that part of me left yesterday
the heart of me is strong today
no regrets i'm blessed to say
the old me dead and gone away
oh, i've been travelin on this road too long
just tryna find my way back home
the old me is dead and gone
dead and gone
and oh, i've been travelin on this road too long
just tryna find my way back home
the old me is dead and gone
dead and gone (yeah..)
i ain't never been scared
i lived through tragedy
situation coulda been dead
lookin back at it
most of that shit
didn't even have to happen
but you don't think about it
when you out there trappin
in apartments hangin
smokin and rappin
niggas start shit didn't
next thing ya kno we cappin
get locked up
then didn't even get mad
now think about damn
what a life i had
most of that shit
look back just laugh
some shit
still look back get sad
maybe my homeboy
still be around
had i not
hit the nigga
in the mouth that time
i won that fight, i lost that war
i can still see my nigga
walkin out that door
whoda thought i'd never see
philant no more
got enough dead homies
i don't want no more
cost a nigga his job
cost me more
i'da took that ass-whoopin
now for sure
now think before i risk my life
take them chances to get my stripe
a nigga put his hands on me alright
otherwise stand there
talk shit all night
cause i hit you and you sue me
i shoot you, get locked up, who me?
no more stress, now i'm straight
now i get it now i take
time to think
before i make mistakes
just for my family's sake
that part of me left yesterday
the heart of me is strong today
no regrets i'm blessed to say
the old me dead and gone away
i turn my head to the east
i don't see nobody by my side
i turn my head to the west
still nobody in sight
so i turn my head to the north
swallow that pill
that they call pride
the old me is dead and gone
but the new me will be alright
i turn my head to the east
i don't see nobody by my side
i turn my head to the west
still nobody in sight
so i turn my head to the north
swallow that pill
that they call pride
that old me is dead and gone
but the new me will be alright
oh, i've been travelin on this road too long
just tryna find my way back home
the old me is dead and gone
dead and gone
and oh, i've been travelin on this road too long
just tryna find my way back home
the old me is dead and gone
dead and gone (yeah..)
- justin timberlake & T.I.
this song makes so much fucking sense. it hurts that it's not knocking people's heads, the way it should be. this song reminds me. i need to settle my insecurities. i need to work on everything i am doing so bloody wrongly. i have other things to worry about. i can't worry about your feelings. not now, not ever, probably.
i need to be the centre of attention in your eyes. wait, scratch that. i need to be the only thing in your eyes. promise me that and i promise you love.
sap, i don't care how you bitch about me. but what i need is your friends not judging me on one mistake i made. when you clearly know that our problems, are between us two. we don't need to involve them. not in any way at all.
syamil, this is really all your fucking fault. so just shut the fuck up, and kill yourself for me.
the last thing i need now.
is a guy who puts his ego before me.
period.
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day out with the girls was fun.
it was so fun, it was beyond fun.
HAHA.
pictures up soon.
maybe when i'm not so pissed.
i love my girls.
i love them so bloody much.
dah dah. takmo kembang. hahahaa.
toodles.
