i had a spectacular friday. a
super-duper spectacular one. :D
the morning started out great.
presentation went REALLY smoothly. i'm so happy that it's all just finally over. i think mairah was right. we saved the best for last, literally. at least i know i did so. because i could see the expressions on his face, and it really made me realise something.
where the fuck was sharifah for 4 weeks?
where was the sharifah who was fucking enthu in every singleshitthing she did?
where the fuck was she when presentations were piling up?
these past 4 weeks, i've had a lot to think about. and although i don't show it, somethings that are happening to me now; i'm not ready for them. i don't think i ever will be ready.. especially because i'm finally learning how to think about myself first. i admit, i haven't been the best team member, haven't been the best student, haven't been the best friend..
but i've hit the turning point.
i'm finally not giving up. (:
anyway, moving along: the afternoon was great because i completed my reports. i went home to take my fb stuff and completed an assignment online once i reached home. (usually, i'd delay it til i won't do it. T_T) so i was freaking proud of myself by then. heh!
i wasn't so proud of what happened in the evening. there was a little miscommunication here and there, and i was supposed to skip fb to head to nenek's (grandma's) house for tomorrow's event. but we didn't go in the end, (conveniently after i told the whole wide world that i'm not going for dance =.=). anyway.. in the end, i spent my evening at causeway point with fir. unfortunately, julie couldn't make it last minute. :(
watched g.i. joe and boy, is that show cool. hahaha. i'd personally give it a 3/5 stars, cause the digital effects weren't that great. and the flow of the movie wasn't thought of carefully. they had to make everything flow typically the way it should be, in order to achieve the "happy-ending" scene. boringgggg.
i had a great time with fir.
maybe it's because i've been wanting to watch a movie for 39240782396471285455 decades. yeah. that's probably why. thanks ah julie, for not coming. hahahaa. but you know i still love you. heehee.
gahh. i need to sleep soon.
mummy's important day tomorrow!
she actually teared when i gave her the little brides-speech. and i'd just like to say that i'm going to support her decision no matter what happens. imma be there for her the way she has been for me. imma do all i can to help her feel loved again. she deserves to feel loved. and if YOU are reading this.. cause for all i know, you might be.. you're a little too late.. and it's time for you feel how she felt before.
confusion.
dilemma.
heartbreak.
toods people.
p/s: i don't know what i should do. i really don't anymore.
