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i'm too tired right now.
to think of anything.
and as much as i still want this.
i can't bring myself to anymore.
and you know exactly why.
it's a decision long overdue?
a mutual one, yeah.
i'm going to miss you.
in fact, i already am missing you like crazy.
it hurts - being loved by you.
like a never-ending rollercoaster that has really high ups and really low downs.
iunno when to expect what.
but i've grown accustomed to expecting something bad.
and i think.
i think...
i think that's the sign that the ride's about to end.
don't you, baby?
perhaps one day we'll be able to work it out again. perhaps right now all we just need is time to think things out. perhaps right now, i need my attention to be on myself. perhaps, i'm just not ready for any of this.. but, one thing's for sure: i need somebody who's willing to put me before himself. either that, or i need nobody. nobody at all but myself.
we'll stay friends.
that's for sure. (:
and time goes by so slowly, every second the wound is picked at, time goes slower. making it harder to breathe, harder to think, harder to smile. now that i've left the wound torn apart again and untreated, i'll need somebody there for me. but i'll have to do it by myself this time around. just because i don't show it, doesn't mean i'm not hurting.
sometimes, you have to hurt yourself..
to not hurt others.
goodnight.
