and i thought you were different from the rest.i rest my case.
oh, if you even bother telling me how the "phone call interrogation" went, you know my number. or have you forgotten it? heh.
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so today was great. well, kind of.
hahaha.
i got into a tiff with somebody. well, maybe a tiff is too small a word. i kinda got into a big fight with somebody. and i was trying to hide it, but i was really, really irritated by him. and you know who you fucking are. texting me like that. ugh.
i am sorry for your loss.
i really am.
but both you and i know that it's not my fucking fault.
so please don't put the blame on me. don't.
but you know what? if you want to, go ahead. cause i really don't give a damn about you anymore. if i were to bump into you coincidentally right now, i wouldn't even throw the slightest hint of smile to you. that's how much i am pissed off with you. and you know exactly why. there goes our friendship. our best-friendship of what, 5 years?
i was stupid and insane before.
and i think i kinda woke up recently.
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BAYBEATS was funnnn. okay, again, not really. =.= and it's not because the atmosphere wasn't great. both the atmosphere and venue were spectacular. the lights and the music and all. barricade did a great job at their performance. they performed, what, 5 songs non-stop? and i think that that enough is a commendable feat. so, bravo. heh. perhaps i was just feeling a little out of sorts because of the earlier irritating text messages, and by the fact that i had a very, very liquid break fast. =/
yeah, i was fungry.
but when i met baby, i didn't feel fungry anymore.
i was just so glad that he was there, because i just wanted to go home. i wanted to escape from all that was happening. maybe the kecoh-ness of everything just made me feel sick. and he knew me well enough to know that i really didn't want to be there. (: thanks, baby.
slept throughout the train ride home.
i like how the silence between us tell so much. i like how we stop in the middle of everything and entwine our bodies. i like the way you look me in the eyes. i like the way you catch me looking at you. i like the way you hold my hands tightly. i like the way you act like i'm already yours. i like the way you smile and laugh. i like the way you care for me.
i don't know what's happening. i don't know how these words will affect the rest. i don't even know if i should be saying all this here. but one thing that i do know?
i am falling for you. (:
perhaps you'll be the one to show me that love isn't all that evil? ;)
goodnight lovelies.
