it's scary knowing i can get caught any time.
i'm tired of lying.
tired of trying.
tired of everything.
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work was pretty tiring. i mean, why wouldn't it be? i had foreign bodies practice friday night, rushed back home, and went for the party. oh, did i mention that i was wearing heels? T_T yeah, i was wearing heels. (an obvious noob at clubbing.) and when we had to walk to macdonalds for sahur? that was when my legs were begging me for mercy.
thank you, love for sending me to work. (:
work was okay today.
to that stranger who i have a feeling i'll meet again: thank you. (:
there was a point of time during work today when i felt like crying. and it's probably because of that bitch who handed me a thousand dollar note who was being such a bitch. a fucking bitchy bitch. i wished my dad was there to wave a ten thousand dollar note in her fucking face. hahaha. okay, i swear that sounds so juvenile. as in, I sound so juvenile now. =.=
gosh. what the fuck is up with me, man?!
perhaps, that's why i need somebody to always fetch me from work. so i'd always have somebody to rant to about how sucky my day went. maybe that's the reason why people need to get married. =/ well, right now, iun really care. for me..? sometimes i feel like i hold everything in for so long, that at points like this, i just cry. free-flow. =.=
working is not easy.
getting the money you use to eat, buy make-up and watch movies? they're not easy to earn. so all you pussies should stop complaining about how little you get for your allowance, because it's fucking hard to earn. and maybe you should try leading a responsible life and start working for your own moolahs too. ugh.
gosh.
okay, i'm sorry.
i didn't mean to offend anybody.
but, that's just how i feel right now..
i'm feeling a lil out of sorts.
maybe i just need a hug.
maybe i just need sleep.
nights.
p/s: i'm sorry, mama.
i thought and wondered at 3:07 AM