iunno what's happening to me.i know this has happened way too many times before, but i just really don't know what's happening to me right now.
i always ask myself, what right do i have to hurt anybody?
in any way at all?
even myself?
whenever i cut those fine lines of red scarlet, what right do i have?
afterall, all of our bodies only belong to God.
i must admit i am scared.
of everything.
that's happened.
happening.
and going to happen.
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life has been pretty hectic again recently. i haven't had time to breathe, let alone to sit down and blog a proper entry. thursdays used to be my only free day, but from now til the 5th, i have only limited time on weekends free. fuck my life, much?
i can't wait for this 5th december though. i'll be performing with the modern dancers and i'm sure all will be fine and dandy. they catch choreography pretty fast. but i'm not sure if they'll execute it the way i want them to. since i've been drilled with hiphop basics since this year, i've lost touch with almost all of my modern dancer side.
sigh.
but that's not what i'm worried about.
what i'm worried about right now, is shariff's test-exam that i haven't even started studying on. yeah, sure, i do pay attention in class. but iun remember half the shits that are in those notes now, because i din take notes at all. sigh.
oh. and to be in love with a person who loves you, is one of the most blessed feelings to have in this world. that's what i know. and through all the mistakes i've made, i'm glad that God hasn't rid me of the ability to feel loved and to love.
i rest my case.
i thought and wondered at 1:40 AM
