you know what?

i tried enough.

we'll be nothing but friends now. so i guess i'm going to tell you how i really feel. oh. not here though. iun want to embarrass you. but, what i do want to say here, is the fact that i've always felt you have the amazing talent of twisting your words til you make everything you say sound right. and i would like to say FUCK YOU for doing so flawlessly. (:

i do like him. i've liked him even before i talked to you. that's the reason why i din talk to you in the first place. after i did talk to you that fateful morning, i was giving you a chance. and you felt otherwise. i think that's what pissed me off 99.9% of the time. you thinking that iun deserve you. a snap of my fingers and i'd have another date. sigh. i'm not saying that you can't do the same. i'm just saying that i deserve the appreciation that you think you deserve.

i'm so sleepy now, i can sleep on macsharee. but i won't. i shall shut her down properly.

and oh syamil, you are by far, the sweetest person i've ever met. no wait, i won't say sweetest. sometimes being sweet can be fake. hmm. you, are the most realistic person i've ever met. the most real. the one who makes sense. you can get angry, but you try not to be. you blame people, but you keep it within you. iunno how to describe what i'm thinking right now because my eyelids are covering my pupils, but, i'd like to say, thank you for being there for me.

for convincing me that SOME people are just not worth my time.

see, how the hell do i get myself in a proper relationship when everytime i give a chance between myself and a guy, this happens? either i be a bitch, or the guy will be a total bastard. oh oh, 'siapa makan cili, dialah yang akan terasa pedasnya'. (:

too tired already.

goodnight.

p/s: can't wait to meet the girls tomorrow! whooh!