wake up call
you don't buy me flowers
you don't buy me drinks
you don't drive me anywhere
but totally insane
we used to talk for hours
until the night was through
but recently your ego
is going through the roof
maybe you need a wake up call
cause you're too comfortable
you think because you're bagged me
you don't have to work at all
it seems like i gotta do wrong
to get your attention
but maybe when i call this man up
you'll finally start to wake up
i think i'm gonna have to cheat
to keep your eyes on me
but maybe if i make you jealous
you'll finally start to wake up
this is your wake up call
this is your wake up call
so wake up
wake up
you better wake up
you're underestimating
the kinda chick i am
cause i don't have a problem
finding someone else
i'll put my little black dress on
and go out to the clubs
and you wonder whats going on
til tomorrow when your boys tell you
i was dancing with someone
you're taking me for granted
boy you're really slacking
if i see somebody i like imma have to grab 'em
time is running out but
you need to do me right so
imma get mine back
you better wake up
- hayden panettiere
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the deal has been done.
mum's married.
i have a situation at home, and nobody can understand what i'm going through.
on another note, fuck you bitch.
because i am tired of this bullshit.
i'm not looking anymore. everybody will start at the same line this time around. except that i'll do my own evaluations, i won't talk about you to anybody to avoid any favourable judgements or anything of the sort. it'll be as though iun mean anything to anybody. which, is actually the case, really.
i just want it to be fair game.
oh, and i'm a very impatient girl.
so asking me to indirectly "wait" for you, is as good as saying goodbye.
didn't i say before that i'm difficult? probably why i'll never experience what mummy went through yesterday. i'd probably never get married. there's nothing to be sad about though. because this thought does seem fucking appealing because marriages are such.... (wait, i'm trying to think of the perfect phrase to relay how i feel about it.) hmm.. marriages - or rather, in my context, relationships, since i'm still so fucking young, right *rolls eyes til next year* - are inconveniences with such huge amounts of facades that nobody, even those who're involved in it, will be able to realise the purpose of sustaining it at a certain point of time during its course.
makes sense?
it will to you, soon enough.
perhaps i'm just meant to stay single. why? cause i'm a time-bomb. and no guy i know seem to be brave enough to defuse me. or should they? perhaps what's so attractive about me is the fact that i AM a ticking time-bomb. heh. or maybe... sigh.
i'd never know.
yay! breakfast with hafiz tomorrow! :D
then full-shift work.
and then a movie with rudyyyyy, on monday. ;)
i love keeping myself busy.
oooooh weee ~
GOODNIGHT, FUCKTARDS.
p/s: i do miss you. i know you probably wouldn't believe me, but i meant it when i tweeted just now. but i know you'd never believe me.
p/s 2: it's the first day mytsandws been un-privatized, so consider yourself lucky, bitches. nyehahah. D:
