a 16GB white iphone 3Gs.
mary was right. now i'm taking greater care of my iphone than macsharee. urgh. the audacity of me. i'll always love macsharee though. i told kakak she's still the only apple product of mine i kiss - regularly, mine you - and the only one i talk to.
but with my iphone's voice command, how can i not talk to it too?
*insert cricket sounds here*
gawd, i swear i sound so bimbotic now.
with all that being said, i still want a blackberry. don't call me greedy. i've always wanted a blackberry. i only got an iphone because i couldn't afford the blackberry i wanted. (bold 9700) :( and besides, i got the iphone using my own money, unlike some people who'd depend on parents to get it. so the sense of achievement upon getting it, is.... real.
sidetrack: somebody owes me money.
$150, to be precise.
gahhh. friendship is sometimes not reliable at all. but iun want to think the worst of you. i'm still hoping that you're telling me the truth. that you're honest with me. that our 12-year-long friendship is still intact, unbroken. but things that everybody else has been feeding me about you is so.. negative. and you're not doing anything to prove them wrong at all. it gets tiring, speaking up for you, when a huge part of me is starting to think the worst of you already.
sigh.
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i should know how it's like to borrow money from people. i've never borrowed if deep-down, i knew i wouldn't be able to pay back. but in recent years, i've been the one lending people money, instead. and it's a tough call trying to get it back. there clearly is a fine line between friendship and whatnot. but huge amounts of money is a serious issue. and sometimes, even $10 can make a difference in a person's life. i should know. i grew up in a not-so-financially-comfortable situation.
mummy has been pissed off with me.
because the only reason i work, is to gain that independence. knowing that the money i earn is purely mine, through hardwork and sweat. so i know that when i spend it, i'm more careful with what i spend it on. and most importantly, it's to not ever feel broke beyond a certain extent. and now that i'm working, i'm broke because i've been lending people money/stuff that cost a lot. and they're not returning anything at all.
mummy's pissed with the fact that i'm so soft. and that i even bother lending them anything at all. because she knows that i won't know how to ask for money/my stuff back. sigh.
how? you tell me how?
when i put my faith and trust in my friends?
and this is what happens?
they breach it just like that?
urgh.
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speaking of which, the 16th is coming soon. and by rights, mel would be getting $300 on that day. i'm hoping whatever trust i have left in a bitch i know doesn't betray mel or me. hoping.
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GAWD. THIS WHOLE ENTRY IS ABOUT MONEY.
hahahahaha.
lighten up, sharifah! gawd. you still have to worry about your assignments and whatnot! and you're still in pain. =.= handle one thing at a time, and you'll be just fine.
gahhh.
i cannot take these voices in my head.
i'm going to text mel even though he's at work now.
bye!
p/s: i have a new number now, too! so if you think you'll get it, ask me for it. (:
