we're all just so screwed up.
iunno what it'll take for all of us to realise that.
you cannot blame me for the hurt that i'm feeling. neither can i blame you for any hurt i'll be putting you through.
let's just say that right now, my heart is.. scorned. how did bella do it so well? how did she accept edward again, after all the hurt that he put her through? after all the pain that he so consciously made her suffer? jacob didn't deserve to be paitao-ed just like that. especially when both he and bella knew that they did feel something. they did share something.
iun think i'm strong enough.
but i've always known that it would come to this.
don't deny it. you knew, too.
it's a twisted love story, what we have. with another who didn't deserve to be hurt either. but how long more must i stay selfless? how long more must i put others before myself? how long more should i be aware of how others are feeling, when iun even realise that i'm killing myself with my actions?
love hurts.
but which love doesn't?
it wouldn't be called love if it didn't hurt.
would it?
oh, and to you..
(i hope you know who you are.)
I FUCKING MISS YOU.
sigh.
shall we stop doing this to each other?
p/s: may apple rule the world. at starbucks now - watching mel work and freezing to death, again - and trust me, 95% of the people here are using macbooks. i bet that dude who is using windows wished he had a macbook now. no-link, but seriously.
i thought and wondered at 9:03 PM
