i wonder when i'll ever be strong enough to break away.
you say you don't need him, but you know you do.
breakaway
grew up in a small town
and when the rain would fall down
i'd just stare out my window
dreaming of what could be
and if i'd end up happy
i would pray (i would pray)
trying hard to reach out
but when i tried to speak out
felt like no one could hear me
wanted to belong here
but something felt so wrong here
so i prayed i could break away
i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes til' i touch the sky
and i'll make a wish
take a chancemake a change
and breakaway
out of the darkness and into the sun
but i won't forget all the ones that i love
i'll take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
wanna feel the warm breeze
sleep under a palm tree
feel the rush of the ocean
get onboard a fast train
travel on a jet plane, far away (i will)
and breakaway
buildings with a hundred floors
swinging around revolving doors
maybe i don't know where they'll take me but
gotta keep moving on, moving on
fly away, breakaway
i'll spread my wings
and i'll learn how to fly
though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
i gotta take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway
out of the darkness and into the sun
but i won't forget the place i come from
i gotta take a risk
take a chance
make a change
and breakaway, breakaway
breakaway...
- kelly clarkson
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sang this a few years ago for riverside idol. i din really know what this song was about. til recently. i think it makes perfect sense now. i never got what kelly clarkson wanted to break away from but it doesn't matter. at some point in our lives, we have to break away from something. even if it's good for us. and i realise that. i realise that now.
"you know when you're in self-denial, and then a slap hits you hard back to reality? it's painful."
sometimes i wonder til when i'll be here. right beside you. i wonder if you'll look at her, thinking of me. i wonder if you'd ever regret hurting me. i wonder if i'll ever be able to truly let go, though i know i must. i wonder if this is what God is trying to tell me.
oh, why do i have this weird, peculiar feeling that i'll never be able to get a 3.5 GPA?
fml.
i thought and wondered at 9:50 PM
