you know how you know something?you know how you know something will never change?
well, i know it now. (:
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life's too twisted for us to lead it straight. one minute you're in, the next you're out. you can't determine what's going to happen next because life is ever-changing. and if you're one who can't adapt to change, you'll never go far in life. there's nothing wrong in disliking change, though. cause change is a bitch sometimes.
these past few days have taught me a lot.
how to forgive.
how to love.
and how to lie.
sometimes for you to stay happy you have to lie to yourself. and no, they aren't harmful because they're white lies. who are we to blame if we can't have things our way? there's always the white lie we have to tell ourselves to make things better. and i know that now.
what i also know is that i am leading a very unsure life.
but perhaps that's what makes life interesting, ey?
ahh. i'm talking crap. it must be because i'm so tired. it's 1.20am now. exactly 24 hours left before he leaves for weeks. and i know i'll have to be strong throughout. i know this because i promised him. and i know this because i know i have to stay strong for all my loved ones who need me in their lives.
i am almost tearing now, but it's a beautiful thing that's unravelling.
maybe, just maybe, i'm in sincere awe of its beauty.
have a great weekend everybody.
goodnight.
i thought and wondered at 12:55 AM
