oopsy daisy i hurt you again crushed your heart in the palm of my hands if you walk out baby i'll understand cause all i'll do is hurt you again
j-yeah, and again, and again
oops, there we go again we messed up once i messed up twice how many times are we gonna try again
girl its like round and round we go (hustle) i'd prefer if you left me alone cause i can't take the pain
and now my heartbeat feels like an 808
i'm a walking disaster don't wanna hurt you that's why you got to go destruction like fire, on the ground that's why you got to go, oh oh oh ohhh
j-yeah see the fussin and fightin, let's not before i see red, let's stop this here's really the end of imma find cupid and put him in a headlock now why did you pick on me why let the pretty bird shit on me i don't need good luck but i need good love that's a girl that will stand by me look honey i didn't diss you therefore i shouldnt haf'ta miss you and now i feel like saturdays are weaker me and my heart got crazy issues
girl its like round and round we go (hustle) i'd prefer if you left me alone cause i can't take the pain
and now my heartbeat feels like an 808
oopsy daisy i hurt you again crushed your heart in the palm of my hands if you walk out baby i'll understand cause all i'll do is hurt you again
i'm a walking disaster don't wanna hurt you that's why you got to go destruction like fire, on the ground that's why you got to go, oh oh oh ohhh
j-yeah they say three times a lady i say three times you're crazy to done with the messin around baseball love, three strikes you're out you're too busy tryna' catch me out but i just wanna get a home run the touring, after a while gets boring i need to come back to your touch look it's all too much i guess now we got'ta let go you see me grow from a boy to a man so this must really be the end of the road
girl its like round and round we go (hustle) i'd prefer if you left me alone cause i can't take the pain
and now my heartbeat feels like an 808
i'm a walking disaster don't wanna hurt you that's why you got to go destruction like fire, on the ground that's why you got to go, oh oh oh ohhh
oopsy daisy i hurt you again crushed your heart in the palm of my hands if you walk out baby i'll understand cause all i'll do is hurt you again
- chipmunk
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"there's nothing much i can do to convince you now, my dear. don't let go please. i'm coming back next week. i really want this to happen. i love you. good night."
- you don't have to guess hard to know who this text was from.
my heart is hurting.
and i'm confused now. because i seem all happy. having found a great new job, great new colleagues, and the independence i lost when i let you in again. sure, it all seems fine and dandy on the outside. i act all cheery and positively fine. but when i close the door and i sit down to rest, my heart just won't stop. it won't stop crying.
i know it doesn't make sense.
of course it doesn't make sense.
since when did matters of the heart make sense?
perhaps all this is a facade..? a play-pretend session. (yeah, that's totally what it is.) one that's soooooo convincing that even i've started to believe it. but what if it comes true? what if this make-believe happiness becomes.. real? on what grounds does it deserve to stay? do i deserve this happiness or does it belong to some other person? but above all these questions, should i let it go?
what if i give this one last chance to you, and possibly lose THE one in the process? do i love you enough to provide you the luxury of screwing my life once more? or do i even love you, still?
one day i will ask myself what is love.
and you'll be sad to know that love does not equal to you anymore.
but even i will be sad.
you'll have to understand if i walk out on you, don't you? you've hurt me too many times before. how long did you think i was gonna be there for you? how long did you think i'd accept the title of being "the rebound girl"? not very long, no.
"love knows no boundaries
set foot on its uncertainty
and you shall be granted happiness
for all eternity"
stop loving me. i have nothing for you. nothing but disgust and hatred and anger. stop liking. stop crushing. stop loving. a hollow heart is one that makes a lot of noise with no actual substance. so shut up and stop. i am tired of giving people false hopes, the way i'm tired of being given false hopes.
