i have an announcement to make.a public apology, rather.
for any hatred harboured against mel. for any thoughts of disliking him. for any disagreements with us being together. i'm pretty sure i caused most if not all of these feelings. i take the blame and i can only hope that you stop thinking negatively towards him/me/us.
for once, i want absolutely everybody i know to give us blessings instead of wishing we'd break up every 2 seconds. i always let people's thoughts and opinions get to me, and that is entirely my fault. i take the blame for any mistakes that occurred because of it, but any mistakes made (either by me or mel) doesn't mean that i love mel any lesser.
yesterday, mel and i celebrated our 5th anniversary. i managed to hurt both him and my right hand. but he always says:
"as long as you know that you love me, and i know that i love you, and we both know it.. things will be okay. nothing else matters."
(well, something like that.)
and even when i'm fighting with him in public, over the phone, or just attempting to start a cold war, i'll always believe in this saying of his. sometimes it'll sound like the most ridiculous thing anybody can ever say. but at times like this, when i'm feeling more at peace with myself than at other times, i think it makes perfect sense.
see, i don't care about anybody else's definition of love. i don't care if people think that love is not what syamil and i have. as long as we both know that it is, nothing else matters.
nothing.
i love you a lot, boyfriend. even if there comes a day where you stop being my boyfriend, i'll always love you. and i think 5 years of love&heartbreak with you is enough time to say that yes, i do believe whatever i'm feeling is real. thank you for keeping me yours. muahmuah (:
okay off to kill myself with trying to complete JW.
p/s: okay, i was being a dramatic bitch (yours truly, as always.). no, he did not dump me on my birthday. =.=
