you know the feeling you get when you want to give up?
it's like a series of demoralising shits happen to you and you have no way of reacting positively to them at all.
i felt like that today. a few hours ago, actually.
but thank God it blew over.
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school's starting in a week's time and i have no idea if i'm ready for it. i'm really going to miss the late nights with baby. the L4D2-ing. the bowling. the lepak-ing with friends. argh.
but just this last semester of 7 shitty modules to bear with, and then, boomz. TEP for half a year, and then attachment for the rest of the year. ahhh. right now my hopes of entering NTU upon graduation is slowly being replaced with 'getting a stable job and settling down'. or i'm prolly just going to continue my studies while working. like on a scholarship program or something. that is, if i can actually attain such an opportunity. sigh.
for now, i'm contented with life and how i face everything that's thrown at me.
harsh comments, criticisms, realisations and truths.
honestly i'd rather face all these now than when i'm older.
wouldn't you?
that being said, i'm prolly gonna get a prank call again in the middle of the fucking night. but life's too beautiful to be wasting it away being sad because of such shits. i read somewhere, "God wouldn't give me shits He knows i cannot handle because His motive of giving me shits is not to break me down, but to make me stronger." or something like that. lol.
waiting for mel to safely return home.
tomorrow (or in actual fact, today) will sadly be the last day we can spend the whole day together for what will seem the longest time. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. okay instead of irritating you (the reader) who has kindly taken some time to read this humble blog of mine (by blogging about the obsessive random rambling in my head), i will do something beneficial like watch the commonwealth games on TV or something so i will have something to talk about when school reopens.
(i have been running out of things to say because it seems like i've been losing my ability to have an opinion. :/)
have a nice last week of hols! (:
