so when conflicts arise, i do what i do best by trying to solve it first. when that doesn't work, i leave. i leave and avoid any further contact because i know i can't do anything anymore. walid was right, friends come and go. and honestly, i don't know how i've survived this long. i need to rely on myself for every single thing, every single detail of my life.

even more so now.

i've been greatly hurt before. when my father hurt my family i took a long time but finally did forgive him for leaving us. that's prolly because he's my father. my blood is infused with his genes, linked to his DNA. i needed to forgive him.

but til the day i die, will i forever hold this grudge.

of how you hurt me, and of how you never stopped.